new blog

I think this blog was never destined to hit off. So i've decided not to flog a dying horse (or boil a dead oyster) and restart another blog. This time, i'm using friendster coz it seems easier to use for very technologically-challenged-unsavvy me.

Here it is http://ifiwereapainter.blogs.friendster.com. Cut it and paste it yourself coz i dunno how to create a link (how sad is that?! see what i mean?)

So yeah...Happy New Year people:) kisses.....

Winter blues...

I think my blog deserves an update...

FIRSTLY, that guy in the previous post turned out to be MR NOT. Dont even wanna go into it... but put it this way - I was quite relieved to find out now than later... and nothing ever happened. Thank God actually... at least didnt accumulate any emotional garbage this time.

But yeah, life goes on... seasons change, old things end, new things happen... only thing constant in a student's life now are EXAMS :P Finished 2 papers last week, and its about 3 weeks to my Phase 1 exam on January 5. It's a killer whale of an exam.. 3 hours and covers everything from 1st year till now. Have been procrastinating for the pass 2 days to begin studying for it. But really gotta start NOW. Right after this blog.

Am going to Wales this weekend for Christmas with my housemate:) quite excited. Going to her home... which isnt really a house now, coz her dad's building a house and they're living in a caravan in the meantime. Cool huh? Do people in malaysia do such things? as in build their own houses? well i suppose it's too hot and we need to give people jobs. Hmmm...

So yeah, have a Blessed Christmas and Wonderful New Year. Christmas IS ABOUT JESUS COMING TO THE EARTH people, not about Santa Claus (just in case you didn't know). Love lots... especially penang Georgians... LOVE LOTS! Wish i could join the parties back home. Sigh.. heard you gals have been meeting up and having a blast.

Life's too exciting :)

Wow.. this oyster's covered in dirt and dust man! almost forgot it existed! anyway... am back in the UK now. Have been back since the end of august..and oh man, so much have happened!

Firstly, i've moved into a house with 6 people! 2 guys and 4 gals. One guy is English, the other is from Hong Kong. And one girl is Welsh, Vietnamese, british-born vietnamese, and Ugandan. So cool huh? like united nations. And they are all really nice...cook for each other..have parties, bake cakes and deserts..just hanging out. It feels nice to have a proper home to go back to after Uni instead of just a bedroom with your bathroom and everything else in it.

But the most exciting thing is that...*blush*... i met someone! hehe.. *shy giggle*. Met him at the medics pubcrawl over a month ago. He's a fourth year medic. But we didnt really talk and all till like 2 weeks ago... we went to some friends' house and hung out and i guess...that's when "ka-ching!" hehehehee....

He's ah moh..Christian..blue-grey eyes...dark brown hair...5"10...and he's so nice! sigh... (i'm not the only one that thinks so ok...!)

So yeah..it's too early to say anything...dunno where it's all heading. But this time, though i'm really happy and excited, i feel surprisingly cool about the whole thing too...like if it happens, it happens. If not, then whatever lah...leave it to God.

Anyhow, it makes life really interesting...hehehe...a good distraction from exams in 1 weeks time!:P rights... write to me if you want more details. hehehehe.. love lots people who still read my blog...

the summer of 2006...

is ending for me. It's been a great summer.. meeting family, meeting friends, meeting complete strangers and getting pleasantly surprised by kindness, seeing new things, learning, laughing, eating, sleeping, shopping... blisss.

It's weird, i realised that after 2 years away from malaysia, alot of my memories here are backdated...like when i said that "something something happened just only...just before i left.." only to be reminded that that was like ages ago.... felt like i was in a time warp. time goes by so fast...

But it was so good to be home. I think I'll make it a point to come home at least once a year. It's so refreshing, so nice to be spoilt and pampered by mom, and so nice to know feel that sense of security, of constancy - the feeling that there is someplace to go back to, and just BE.

I was in the Philippines with my sis and one night we were talking...we realised that we are literally nomads..living out of a bag. hehe...coz my parents moved to Balik Pulau and since my sis and I wont be really living permanently with them, we dont have a room there...we live in our sister's room. And our clothes and things are stored away somewhere (mostly thrown away! 2 years ago punya stuff...what to do). And even in UK, i change rooms every year... feels like a vagabond... quite exciting, but tiring too sometimes. that's why the feeling of "home" - old friends, relatives, penang...is so precious. Rene, Siew, Hooi Ching, Lin Lin, Betsy, Yee Voon, Deiv, Loh Jo... SGGS friends i managed to meet: Love you gals lots...take care and keep in touch kay.

I wanna write more about India and the Philippines..but i gotta go finish packing. Though I love coming home, I wouldn't miss the trips to India and the Philippines for anything. I think travelling in Asia is much more exciting than Europe..seriously..maybe coz we have europe on TV more. But yeah..if anyone wants to visit mongolia or nepal or vietnam or whatever, tell me! I wanna come!

PS This post is dedicated to Leong Siew Fong for calling me when i was almost asleep to (among other things) tell me that my oyster has many cobwebs. Love ya siew!!!

Quarter life crisis

So..i turned 22 yesterday. And it felt strange...for the first time, i didnt really feel like celebrating. It's like..i felt OLD.

And aimless. Like..."What's there to look forward to in the future?" "NOW, what do you wanna do with your life Abigail??"

If i live to 88, i've lived a quarter of my life. Phew! Congrats =)

But what next? i feel like...all this while after high school and college, my aim was to get into med school and enjoy uni life...which is what i'm doing now. And then what? It feels like i've reached another milestone in my life. I gotta ask myself, reflect...and answer the question..."where is your life heading to next?"

I know bottomline is, I have faith that GOd has the best plan for my life and that the best is yet to come (otherwise life seems pretty hopeless aint it? with 3 quarters more to go..the best better be yet to come! ALWAYS).

But now i have the feeling that i'm running around like a headless chicken. What do i REALLY wanna do? be a missionary doctor? be a big time doctor in malaysia? marry a british person and 'disappear' somewhere? hahaha... not that it's SO important now...in fact, it probably isnt a big deal and i should take things as they come. Still, there's this nagging feeling in me that says that there is more to life than having a good time at uni, and time is ticking and i should know what i wanna do and make full use of my time coz time is precious and before i know it, BOOM i'll be 30 and stuck somewhere in the jungles of Sarawak wondering how and why on earth am i there. Time flies aint it? I am back in KL now (not yet in beloved Island) and already it feels so nice to be in Malaysia. Trust me, the grass isnt MUCH greener on the other side lifestyle-wise. We have so much good food and good stuff here u cant get anywhere in UK. But i am still very blessed to study there...it's a really enriching experience, observing how people do things and think differently. Really cool.

So..that's it. It's a phase. I'll be going to the Christian Medical College in India next sunday for 2 weeks to do some travel cum study. I heard it's a really great hospital in terms of its service to the poor people around it. My friend says its like paradise in the midst of a dump. Hehe..i'm sure going there has a deeper reason and i'm really looking forward to it. Till then... time for some deep meditation on the meaning of life.....heh...

Which is worst

Having a cow poo over your face or brushing your teeth with your sister's toilet brush?

YeaH..THAT'S WHAT HAPPENED TO ME!!!!

I was at a farm last saturday. it was so lovely...30 degree weather..bbq in the lawn..good friends, good food. We fed some cute pink piglets and decided to help milk the cows. I was putting pumps onto the cow's boobs when "pbleuwwkkk" - the stupid cow farted diarrhoea greeny brown poo all over my face. Ewwwwwww....

It happened that my face was facing her butt coz we were standing on a lower level than the cows coz it's easier to milk the cows that way. Some cows had 25 kgs of milk..imgaine 25 kgs of fluid hanging down from your boobs...ouch..not nice.

In 8 minutes i'm going to see the biggest boobs in england (on a person).

About the toilet brush thing, i was in my sister's toilet and just used what i thought was an extra toothbrush which turned out to be used for washing the sink and stuff. Bleah....

My exams are over and i'm currently bumming around in London with my sis. Eat sleep watch football eat sleep go shopping eat eat sleep.

Man....that's life.

RE: Cutest Dem Ever!

I had a practical exam on Tuesday..and my examiner was the cute doctor (clinical demonstrator ie teacher-person)!!!!!

Oh my goodness...*hyperventilating*

When i walked into the exam room, i almost frozed when i saw him. Was so afraid i'd freeze and go blank. Seriously. Had to tell myself "now now..calm down." Anyway, he shook my hand and introduced himself and then said "we've met before right?" and i said "yes".

But in my mind, i wanted to say "Yes! But not enough! Can i have your number?" heheh

Anyway, the exam went quite well...ah...savour every moment of listening to his chocolate voice. Mmmmmmmmm.

And today i did my written exam and there he was right in front. He was my invigilator! Semangat man! That made my day:) He was so lepak..just sitting down on the chair reading a newspaper! I guess he couldnt be bothered if we copied or not. Yeah actually, he is really lepak.. walks about like a cool cat with his nose in the air. Literally...(or maybe he just has a big nose - he's indian). And he doesnt look so cute when he doesnt smile. But when he does...sigh....
I am contemplating going up to him to take a picture with him. I mean..it wont hurt right? should i get his number? hmmm...maybe not. I wouldnt have the guts to call! But do u think it'll be ok to go and take a picture with him and then tell him that i think he's fit? ('Fit' is the term used here to describe someone as 'hot').

I have nothing to lose right? RIght? he'll be gone by next term. And i wont see him again...unless i bump into him in hospital (slim chance). Should i? hehehehehe

Sounds so hiau. But heck man. You know, i feel that as i approach 22 in june (gosh, can u imagine?!) i have this "Whoa...time is going fast..slow down! i'm getting older! oh no!" kinda feeling...bordering on panic but not really. Anyway, i keep telling myself, if you wanna do something, do it quick and NOW NOW NOW or you may just move on and the opportunity will be gone.

Moved on,
The opportunity gone.

That rhymes! ISnt it cool? ;)

By the way i'm still alive! i have 2 more papers left..but they arent as heavy as the written one today, so i'm pretty relaxed now;) Woohoo... i can almost feel freedom.

People...give me ideas/suggestions/advice/encouragements/feedback. help!